Hey lovelies, let’s start by saying my blog has been non-existent this year and why I’ve missed writing I think that the break was needed and that I need to step away to focus on other areas of my life and improving myself as a person. 2018 has by far been the worst year of my life, but I’m happy about it. In a weird way I think that experiencing hardship has made me a better, kinder and stronger person and taught me to be more compassionate to other peoples situations which maybe I wasn’t pre-hand.
2018 started with me experiencing the worst grief of my life, and honestly the first few months of the year were exceptionally bleak, I didn’t eat enough and lost an incredible amount of weight slipping down to a size 8-10 very quickly. I’ve always been extremely self conscious so this weight loss and new image made me feel so much worse, eating become a task and I’m still struggling with it now. I’ve spent half my life wanting to be thinner, and honestly now that I have it I still feel quite uncomfortable. Clothes fit me differently and my style prior doesn’t really suit me very much at all now. As a perk I feel confident in some clothes and I’m trying my best to come to terms with my size and body image and I honestly think this will happen for me in the new year.
My love life has been an absolute car crash but I’m not mad anymore to be honest, I’ve been lied too, cheated on, used as a second option but it has honestly taught me to look after myself better and that I deserve so much better. Why it really sucked I feel like my months of being single have taught me so much more about myself and I’m thankful for that.
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